I know the title sounds ominous but bear with me.
I’m writing this from bed where I am sequestered until this sickness passes. I tend to lean towards the workaholic side of things and am an avid over thinker, so being stuck in a room with only me and my thoughts is a bit cumbersome.
I spoke with my friend Megan yesterday who is currently going through the pre-grief stage of inevitably losing a being that is close to her and I started going to the dark side of things.
We all go there, whether we talk about it or not, and I want you to know it’s completely normal and ok to think about death. I started thinking about my dogs, then my parents, then myself. These are all circumstances that are going to happen, it’s a matter of when and how. Since I have little control over when I go, I thought about what I can control and that is the music at my going away party (aka funeral).
I’m sure I can’t be the only one that has thought about the music at their funeral and I started panicking thinking about Josh Groban or, god forbid, Train being played while people are saying their last goodbyes to me. So I took matters into my own hands and typed up my funeral playlist.
After years of joking about it, the process was actually cathartic. I cried while I typed the name of each song and who it was dedicated to. I was a mess of emotions for a solid 2 hours. Then I was done and you know what? Talk about a weight being lifted.
I forwarded it to my friend to have just in case, and being the friend she is there was no judgment or weirdness.
So, unless you are ok with others picking out your farewell music, I highly suggest making your death playlist and passing it on.
Side note: I was so close to having Master of Puppets as my outro but ruled against it. Maybe at the graveside service?
Katie’s Death Playlist:
- David Bowie – Quicksand
- Radiohead – True Love Waits
- For Katie – ABBA – I Have A Dream
- For Henry – Carrie Underwood – How Great Thou Art (it’s a family thing)
- For Lil Andrew – Simon & Garfunkel – The Boxer
- For Maggie – The Beatles – Golden Slumbers / Carry That Weight
- For Andrew – Pearl Jam – Just Breathe
- The Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Maps
- The Kinks – Strangers
- The Flaming Lips – Yoshimi
- Simon and Garfunkel – Bridge Over Troubled Water